A Sigh Of Relief

I think sometimes I can be a bit dramatic.

Yes, I know…shocking.

But I can’t help but feel like that’s sort of what I was being today, dramatic.

You know that whole anxious thing? The knots in my stomach?

Well, it was because I had to go back and face the school I was working in three months ago…to pick up the rest of my stuff.

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When I first lost my teaching job, I went into the school that following weekend with Jay and my parents to clean out most of the stuff from my classroom. I even blogged about itI just didn’t tell you exactly what I was doing.

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But when I was cleaning out the room, I knew there were things that the kids were still using and I really didn’t want to disrupt them anymore than they were already going to be. So I decided to leave a handful of things there for the students…

Posters, calendars, and my magnet boards, to name a few.

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****FYI: Parents & Teachers: If you go into the auto section at WalMart and look for oil drip pans, you can get them for probably $9-$10, and they are completely magnetic. They are GREAT for doing spelling, alphabet, and word work activities, and are also a great way to have students sign in/sign up for lunch each day. Smile

But mainly, I had to pick up the rest of my books.

Over the years, I’ve accumulated a lot of books. Like, a.lot.of.books. You remember the Scholastic Book Orders from when you were in elementary school right? Well if you thought you loved them as a kid…they’re even better when you’re a teacher.

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So I gathered my belongings, and even got to see my former students for the last five minutes of their day. I swear some of them grew a foot since I last saw them. And boy, I’ll tell ya, they do a really good job of making me feel like some sort of celebrity.

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As soon as I saw them, all of my anxiousness immediately subsided, and I was put much more at ease. I knew it would happen this way; this is how I have reacted to things all my life. I build up the anticipation to the point where I make myself nauseous, and then once it happens, it’s no big deal.

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I was able to talk with some of my former co-workers, which was nice, and I was also able to ask some of the questions that I’ve been wanting answered for three months now. Unfortunately, my answers were pretty craptastic, but I was at least able to get the things off of my chest that I wanted to. Hence, my overwhelming nerves.

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Maybe one of these days I’ll get more into the details of the whole ordeal, but for now, I’m going to try my best to put it all behind me and continue to move forward. There’s no sense in dwelling on the past, and I know I’ve got big things in store for me. I can feel it.

Now only time will tell where I end up next. Smile

Comments

  1. says

    Courtney, you have shown so much strength and positivity over these past few months. Losing your job obviously wasn’t the most ideal situation, but I feel like you truly made the most of it. I believe we are in control of our happiness, and you’re a prime example!

  2. says

    Courtney, you are such an inspiration! I’ve been reading for a while and you have shown so much courage and kept things upbeat in your life (at least for the blogging part that you let us see) and I think that is so admirable! You will absolutely do great things in your life. I know this may not mean a whole lot, but you really were one of the main reasons I decided to start a blog- and already it has impacted my life in more ways than I could have imagined (all positive). I want to thank you so much for that! Oh, and the scholastic book fairs that we used to have were the best.thing.ever! I kind of miss them :)

  3. says

    Courtney,

    I applaud you for being so strong! Everything happens for a reason. That is what I always tell myself when things don’t go the way I had wanted. Don’t worry. What is meant to be will happen! I know there is a class out there waiting for you to be their teacher! Keep smiling :)

    Katelyn

  4. says

    I knew it had something to do with school. I tink, though, it would have been AWESOME if you would have taken a shot of tequila beforehand and hown up a little bit tipsy to school. Just sayin’… :)

    Just a question – did your school go year round? It’s crazy they are still in school right now if now!
    chelsey @ clean eating chelsey recently posted..crazy day at the vegan cafe

    • Courtney says

      Haha, I REALLY thought about that tequila! 😉
      No, they don’t go year round. Thursday is the last day.

  5. Lauren says

    Thanks for sharing about your teaching experience! As an inspiring teacher I loved this post a little bit more than the rest (although, that’s tough to say!). This might be too much to ask, but I’d love it if you could do a post or 2 about tips, tricks and ideas you’ve come across as a teacher. Thanks– you’re so great!

  6. says

    I can completely understand why you were so anxious earlier today, I do the exact same thing. But you showed strength and you did it.

    You have been so chipper and positive since losing your job – you’re such a happy fun person! You’re going to be great no matter where life’s journey may take you next!
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  7. says

    I don’t think you were being dramatic at all. I have so much respect for you for going back there and showing how strong, positive, and incredible you truly are. You have such a great attitude and I don’t think I could have had the courage to do what you did today.

    Keep the good attitude, I know things are going to work out for you :)

  8. Darcy Pogue says

    Courtney, I realized today, only briefly talking to you that I missed you more than I thought! It was good to see you there, where I thought you belonged. I can honestly say that I don’t know how I would feel if this happened to me and good for you for keeping your chin up! Good luck in any/all endavours you encounter in the future……..

    • Courtney says

      Thank you, Darcy!!
      I’ve been missing you guys like crazy…but it was so good to see you again. Maybe we can try to get together over the summer…ice cream?? :)

  9. Danica says

    I do the exact same thing as you, Courtney–I get so nervous for things that I get headaches and sometimes even feel nauseous, but then once that thing actually happens I make it through just fine….You should absolutely be proud of yourself for facing what you were so nervous about–that’s typically the hardest part–way to go!
    I’m also in my senior year of college and an Ed. major. Unfortunately, there have been so many teachers losing their positions recently, and I’m so sorry you had that happen to you. But keep being positive–great things are absolutely in store for you!!

  10. says

    I’m so glad that today is over and you can close that door and move on. I definitely agree that big things are in store. Maybe even a speaking engagement at a conference or something along those lines. 😉

    xoxo
    Brittany recently posted..Loving Lehja

  11. says

    That must have been so hard. As a teacher, the end of school is hard enough. You put so much time and effort into the students and the job, so I can’t imagine how it felt leaving midyear. Glad you were able to see the kids today though. I’m glad it seemed to go as well as it could have.
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  12. wizard says

    You resigned! Stop acting like you “lost” your job. Pathetic to try and elicit sympathy for something you did.

    • Courtney says

      “Wizard” – unless you know the whole story of everything, then I’d appreciate it if you’d stop hiding behind your pseudo name and leaving unnecessary comments like this.

        • Wizard says

          I agree, but if you are going to discuss on the blog how you “lost” your job, why not be truthful about what happened? Or, do not discuss it at all.

          • says

            it’s obvious that courtney’s job situation is personal. she basically HAD to blog about losing her job b/c readers noticed a change in her posting schedule and everyone was very confused as to why she wasn’t mentioning her students and a job that she loved anymore. if she wants to keep details of the situation private, i think that’s something that should be respected. i know i never revealed my employer on my blog or discussed personal work matters because of safety issues and concerns about HR/legal ramifications. if she says something negative about her employer it could be seen in a negative light should she choose to pursue employment with another company in the future and they find her blog.

          • Courtney says

            I am no longer discussing this matter on the blog. If it is really something you feel the need to discuss further, feel free to email me.

  13. says

    Loving your positivity Courtney! You are truly going to be wonderful at whatever you decide to do with that outlook! I’m glad that your day went better than expected, that’s always nice isn’t it?!
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  14. says

    You’re such a strong person. Times are incredibly tough right now, and wonderful teachers are losing jobs all over the nation. Unfortunately, it seems as though the people losing their jobs are the most passionate ones… our public school systems are in serious trouble.

  15. Beth Tollis says

    Courtney-
    I am teacher up near Cleveland, and we have all sorts of funding issues, but nothing that went into immediate effect. I understand if you don’t want to blog about it, but I can’t make sense of what happened based on the little details presented. Doesn’t your school have a union? How can you lose a job mid year? Didn’t you sign a contract? So confused, but understand the devestation. I was moved from social studies to special education 3 years ago, to save another person’s job, and it has done a number on my positive attitude. Or lack of…Great to hear you’re hang in,

    • Confused too says

      Hi Courtney, I love your blog! Your comedic timing and positive attitude is wonderful. I too understand if you don’t want to share the details of what happened with your teaching position but am also confused? Maybe a topic for you to blog about? Will you pursue another teaching position?

  16. Shayla says

    I really admire and applaud you for your strength and courage today. You had every right to be so anxious and nervous…I know I would have! Throughout everything you have maintained a very strong, positive attitude and outlook on everything and I commend you for that. Everything happens for a reason and I believe good things are definitely in store for you :)
    Btw, I meant to mention in my email that you and your blog are one of the reasons that inspired me to start my own blog, so thank you! :)

  17. says

    You are right when you say that you have big things in store for you! Sometimes, we need to fall to rise to a better place. I hope that you know, deep inside, that you are an inspiration, and a great woman. Never have fear, and just look ahead for your future! =]
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  18. says

    Your positivity about the future and strength to deal with the present is amazing, Courtney! Although I don’t know you personally, I can tell that when they let you go, the school really made a big mistake! Stay strong!
    Khushboo recently posted..23 years wiser

  19. says

    I always hate that feeling of having something unresolved. I’m sure it was seriously nerve-wracking, but I’m glad you at least tried to get some closure and move on! The kids must have missed you a lot, but what can you do? You’re definitely going to have great things coming to you, and your optimism will carry you through :)

    And yes, I was obsessed with the Scholastic book fairs and order forms. I loved the Magic Tree House Series, and left my parents broke with how many books I ordered!
    Liv @ The Salty n’ Sweet recently posted..A Run- At Last

  20. says

    It’s hard not knowing what is to come, but I can tell that you are a wonderful teacher (I am one, too, so I know what it takes- now if only someone would hire me even though I am a newbie teacher, hahaha).
    And (if you are planning to continue teaching) you WILL find another job, and you WILL influence more lives and help those children achieve success in both their academic and personal lives. Stay positive, and know that things always work out the way they are supposed to. :)
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  21. says

    I’m so glad you were able to get through this. I can’t imagine how difficult it would be to go back to your former employers but you are much stronger than you think :) often times I find myself getting a bit more uneasy than I should about work-related situations. Sometimes I have to remind myself that staying calm is really the best answer.

  22. says

    Oh girl :( That is so hard. Especially after all of those months — I am so sorry that you’re sad, but girl, onwards and upwards! When one door closes, another one opens. You just have to figure out which one it is.

  23. says

    re: above comments…Julie at PB Fingers couldn’t have said that any better, amen sista! The rest of us here support you and commend you for what you did and we’re all here for you….this will only make you stronger and you got great things that lie ahead for you :) xoxo

  24. says

    I can feel big things on deck for you too, Courtney. It’s a great feeling to have for yourself, isn’t it? Way to be brave and go back there. It couldn’t have been easy, but it sounds like you did it with grace and humility. You are one special lady and I am sure that great things are coming your way! XO

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