Hey strangers. Long time, no chat, huh?
Truth be told, I’m struggling this week. This is the week I’ve been dreading for months, as my maternity leave has come to and end and it’s time for me to head back to work.
I knew it was going to be hard but quite honestly, it’s one of the hardest things I’ve ever had to do. Leaving this little face is not easy.
Those were taken this weekend…seriously, how is he growing so quick??
I haven’t really talked too much about the whole “going back to work” topic yet because I haven’t been ready. Who am I kidding…I’m still not ready. I’m a basket case and I’ve been an emotional mess for weeks. Just ask, basically, anyone I’ve been I contact with.
It’s unbelievable how fast this time has gone, and while I know it will be okay once we get in a groove, the thought of leaving my sweet Lucas is just so, so hard. While I would love to be able to stay at home with him every minute of everyday, our little family just does better with two incomes. It’s just how the cookie crumbles.
Luckily, as I mentioned before, our friend Erika is watching Lucas which definitely helps make things just a bit easier. And another thing helping my sanity is that I actually changed roles at my company while I was out on leave and am going back to a much more flexible, part time position. So now, instead of working 8-5, I’m working 8-3:30. It may only be an extra hour and a half each day, but right now it’s making the thought of the transition just a little bit easier for me.
Sooo, I haven’t been able to make it around these parts as much lately since I’ve been trying to soak in every single minute with my little peanut as I prepare myself to head back to work.
Things like having to actually iron real clothes (oh, I’ll miss you yoga pants…but I’ll be back for you at 3:30 everyday!), getting all of my supplies and whatnot ready for pumping while at work (we even have a special nursing room at work which is great), keeping up the house/chores, and prepping meals are all things that Jay and I will be working on over these next few weeks. I feel confident that we’ll get a good routine down…it will just take some time.
I would love to hear from any other working moms on how you made the transition and/or what helped make it any easier!
I actually worked a half day today, which went well, and Thursday I start up for real; and while I know everything is going to be okay (at least that’s what I keep telling myself), the mommy guilt still hits hard.
And to add to that guilt, I had to bring Lucas back to the doctor this afternoon to get the rest of his two-month immunizations (we spaced them out so he didn’t need to get all of them at once). Umm, yeah…I think my tear ducts have just about had it for today. So if you’ve got a virtual hug to send, feel free to shoot one over my way today. I could use it.
I’ll be back again soon, and I promise I won’t be such a downer.