Lucas is officially registered to start kindergarten in the fall.
And I’m over here being all sorts of sentimental and anxious about it.
Sometimes, it seems like it was just yesterday that I was typing up Baby Tooth updates and Lucas’s monthly recaps. Cliche as it sounds, the years really do go by SO fast.
When we got back in the car after finishing up at registration, and I was asking Lucas what he thought/if he was excited, his first response was a somewhat enthusiastic “yes,” followed with, “But how am I going to know where to go when I start kindergarten?”
And right then, I immediately felt all of my own insecurities and anxiety come racing to the surface.
I’ve always had a very difficult time with change; everything from changing a paint color, to starting college, to adding a new kiddo to the family. The build up and the anxiety has always been something I’ve had to deal with, and as soon as Lucas said those words, I found myself putting me in his shoes and started coming up with all sorts of different scenarios (which, mind you, I’ve already been thinking about)…
What if something bad happens on the bus?
What if he has nobody to sit with at lunch?
What if he gets lost on his first day?
As you can see, I’m sort of mess. For all I know, Lucas could have legit just been curious about where he’d need to go when he starts kindergarten, and it wasn’t a loaded question filled with anxiety like I’m building it up as.
I also know that many of these worries I have are both a) normal and b) silly, because deep down in my heart, I know he’s going to be fine. I just can’t help but worry.
Because, apparently, that’s just what I’m in for now for the rest of my life because…motherhood. <3